As I sit here at home, listening to my kiddos argue, getting ready for Sausage Festival, I have to laugh. In fact I have been laughing for a few days now. I mean, I'm a vegetarian for heaven's sake! Sausage Festival? REALLY?
Honestly, ever since the time "I would have" been driving to San Francisco to see my two favorite people in the world...Michael Franti and Seane Corn, I have been giggling to myself at random times of the day. And I must admit, when my best friend Jacque texted me a photo (real time) of her and Michael Franti last night, I did shed a little tear.
For those of you who know me, you know that the turn of events from this past week really did affect me. For those of you who don't and are thinking, "what the hell girl, get over it", let me shine some light on this...because it sure woke me up!
These two fantastic individuals are serving the world with their gifts. Name it, social justice, yoga, spiritual activism, music....it's something much bigger than me and dammit, I wanted to be a part of it. I kept envisioning myself doing yoga with 40,000 other people and breathing collectively with all of them. I saw myself hugging Michael Franti and saying "Nice job big guy! Keep up the good work! And thanks for acknowledging my little girl in Medford." I wanted to hug Seane Corn again and just a little of her amazing energy.
But then wow, I woke up this morning to this little angel (my 5 year old) staring at me with her little, soft hand on my face. As I opened my eyes she said, "I love you so much mommy" and I felt an all over body sigh that came from deep within my heart and I realized....I am part of something much bigger than me....I am. And I don't have to go any further than my bed to recognize it.
So, as I mingle with new people today at the Sausage Festival and watch my kids get jacked up on sugar and rollercoaster rides I will know, deep within my heart that I am such an important piece of serving the world...right here with my family.
Rock on Michael, Seane, Jacque and ALL of you at Power to the Peaceful! I cannot wait to see you all next year, when my kids are one year older and I am one year wiser.
Peace to all!
ps - and yes Michael, Jolene and the rest of the band, remember my yoga practice is Seane Corn inspired.....mmm hmmmmm...you know it...you love it! See you Saturday!
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Summer's End
Wow....what the heck happened to summer? I mean really? The weather never really got "summer-like", the kids were busier than I can remember, and I feel like all I did was empty clothes from their suitcases, wash them and repack!
What happened?
Now it's uniforms and homework...ALREADY?
I promised to write a blog every week; I had a list of projects I wanted to do outside; I told Isabella I would teach her how to tell time finally (hey no judgments....I have an issue with time as it is!). Seriously...now what? Is there a way to press pause on the life button?
The only thing I can honestly say about this summer is that we were all very present. This was the first summer that I actually stopped to smell roses, looked at a grasshopper up close, played a silly made up game with my kids and chased the ice cream man down the street. There was nothing else going on besides whatever it was that they were doing.
So why am I so sad to see it end? Well, for the obvious reason like the change in the weather. I love the sunshine.....But beyond that I know that these two little angels will be very different kids next summer. And every moment, even the ones when I argued with those two, were priceless. They will never be the same kids and before I started living in the present, I don't think I really recognized that reality.
Summer will be very different next year and it's crazy to actually understand that. I keep asking myself "Did I take enough photos? Did I spend enough time individually with them? Did I teach them anything good?" So what did I learn and FINALLY in my life abide by?
Live in the NOW... not in the past, not in the future...but the NOW. That's all we have and man....the now is so dang cool.
I may NEVER get those scrapbooks done but livin' it is really where it's at!
Peace everyone!
What happened?
Now it's uniforms and homework...ALREADY?
I promised to write a blog every week; I had a list of projects I wanted to do outside; I told Isabella I would teach her how to tell time finally (hey no judgments....I have an issue with time as it is!). Seriously...now what? Is there a way to press pause on the life button?
The only thing I can honestly say about this summer is that we were all very present. This was the first summer that I actually stopped to smell roses, looked at a grasshopper up close, played a silly made up game with my kids and chased the ice cream man down the street. There was nothing else going on besides whatever it was that they were doing.
So why am I so sad to see it end? Well, for the obvious reason like the change in the weather. I love the sunshine.....But beyond that I know that these two little angels will be very different kids next summer. And every moment, even the ones when I argued with those two, were priceless. They will never be the same kids and before I started living in the present, I don't think I really recognized that reality.
Summer will be very different next year and it's crazy to actually understand that. I keep asking myself "Did I take enough photos? Did I spend enough time individually with them? Did I teach them anything good?" So what did I learn and FINALLY in my life abide by?
Live in the NOW... not in the past, not in the future...but the NOW. That's all we have and man....the now is so dang cool.
I may NEVER get those scrapbooks done but livin' it is really where it's at!
Peace everyone!
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