Universal Guidance

Whew....the Off the Mat, Confessions of a Yogini books series is done! All those Weekly Oms, all that late night writing and editing...done! Documented, in a series of 7 books. Amazing.

People ask me questions like, "How long did this take you?" "How did you know what to do?" "What are your books about?" And I seriously want to crack up. It is just so surreal and ..... crazy! Me, an author! Living my purpose!

Let me be clear, I know this is my purpose. I live my purpose when I write, I LOVE what I am doing but I can't help it: every time I answer a question about my books, it's like having an out of body experience. Really? I'm an author!? Really Universe? How did I get here?

Don't mistake this post as me being ungrateful...it's just... well..it's a testimony to every single thing I have written about. It's a testimony to the power of yoga and all it's magic. It's a testimony to the law of attraction and the power of your thoughts. And it's a testimony to trusting the Universe and not asking how. And while I continue to breeze through this life, I still stop when things manifest ... exactly as I intended and I am in awe. In awe of how it really all just works...effortlessly.

I have to be honest and admit something: there is still tons of work to do with regard to this book seris and admittedly, I don't know what I'm doing! I have no idea how this series of books is going to magically appear on Amazon! And even more mind bending is how are my books going to get to the bookstores, how are they going to be accounted for, who is going to keep track of it all and how DOES it all work?

All these questions that run in the background of my mind could have been debilitating. It could have halted me in this process. But I am living this experience as I have lived every experience in my life. With intuitive guidance and universal trust. With an openess to all the gifts that life has to offer. With a willingness to walk blindly and courageously toward my purpose; knowing that everything will be alright!

Life is about living guys. Get out there...love every minute. Go for what you love and stop and breathe it all in from time to time. Know what you want and just...DO IT!

Living My Yoga

As I sit here at home, listening to my kiddos argue, getting ready for Sausage Festival, I have to laugh. In fact I have been laughing for a few days now. I mean, I'm a vegetarian for heaven's sake! Sausage Festival? REALLY?

Honestly, ever since the time "I would have" been driving to San Francisco to see my two favorite people in the world...Michael Franti and Seane Corn, I have been giggling to myself at random times of the day. And I must admit, when my best friend Jacque texted me a photo (real time) of her and Michael Franti last night, I did shed a little tear.

For those of you who know me, you know that the turn of events from this past week really did affect me. For those of you who don't and are thinking, "what the hell girl, get over it", let me shine some light on this...because it sure woke me up!

These two fantastic individuals are serving the world with their gifts. Name it, social justice, yoga, spiritual activism, music....it's something much bigger than me and dammit, I wanted to be a part of it. I kept envisioning myself doing yoga with 40,000 other people and breathing collectively with all of them. I saw myself hugging Michael Franti and saying "Nice job big guy! Keep up the good work! And thanks for acknowledging my little girl in Medford." I wanted to hug Seane Corn again and just a little of her amazing energy.

But then wow, I woke up this morning to this little angel (my 5 year old) staring at me with her little, soft hand on my face. As I opened my eyes she said, "I love you so much mommy" and I felt an all over body sigh that came from deep within my heart and I realized....I am part of something much bigger than me....I am. And I don't have to go any further than my bed to recognize it.

So, as I mingle with new people today at the Sausage Festival and watch my kids get jacked up on sugar and rollercoaster rides I will know, deep within my heart that I am such an important piece of serving the world...right here with my family.

Rock on Michael, Seane, Jacque and ALL of you at Power to the Peaceful! I cannot wait to see you all next year, when my kids are one year older and I am one year wiser.

Peace to all!

ps - and yes Michael, Jolene and the rest of the band, remember my yoga practice is Seane Corn inspired.....mmm hmmmmm...you know it...you love it! See you Saturday!

Summer's End

Wow....what the heck happened to summer? I mean really? The weather never really got "summer-like", the kids were busier than I can remember, and I feel like all I did was empty clothes from their suitcases, wash them and repack!

What happened?

Now it's uniforms and homework...ALREADY?

I promised to write a blog every week; I had a list of projects I wanted to do outside; I told Isabella I would teach her how to tell time finally (hey no judgments....I have an issue with time as it is!). Seriously...now what? Is there a way to press pause on the life button?

The only thing I can honestly say about this summer is that we were all very present. This was the first summer that I actually stopped to smell roses, looked at a grasshopper up close, played a silly made up game with my kids and chased the ice cream man down the street. There was nothing else going on besides whatever it was that they were doing.

So why am I so sad to see it end? Well, for the obvious reason like the change in the weather. I love the sunshine.....But beyond that I know that these two little angels will be very different kids next summer. And every moment, even the ones when I argued with those two, were priceless. They will never be the same kids and before I started living in the present, I don't think I really recognized that reality.

Summer will be very different next year and it's crazy to actually understand that. I keep asking myself "Did I take enough photos? Did I spend enough time individually with them? Did I teach them anything good?" So what did I learn and FINALLY in my life abide by?

Live in the NOW... not in the past, not in the future...but the NOW. That's all we have and man....the now is so dang cool.

I may NEVER get those scrapbooks done but livin' it is really where it's at!

Peace everyone!

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The words I search for now are words I have used before. However, to describe this experience with Off the Mat and Into the World really is challenging because the words ring more truth and speak to the depths of soul much more than I could have ever imagined.

Affirming is a word that comes to mind. Spirit awakening; truth excavating; illusion shattering are all phrases that have flown across my psyche this week. To say I have grown my community exponentially is an understatment. To recognize that I am an agent of global change is illuminating. To FEEL like I have met these people before, the people enrolled in this program alongside me, tells me that Divinity exists and that we are all a part of it - should we choose to get out of our own drama and self-loathing and wake up.

I have spoken these words for many years but never truly embodied them as I do now.

I could not have imagined what my path would be until now. I could not have recognized that my lovely mission was right here, under my nose from the very beginning.

Esalen has been the most amazing gift thus far in my life. To say I have found heaven on Earth would simply begin to encapsulate my experience here. Every fear I have ever had presented itself to me this week and I took each challenge on with vulnerable, child like grace; erradicating that fear and finally recognizing that it has never been who I am .... only a part that can no longer define me.

I am excited, my soul is inspired, my heart is clear and clean....Life is abundant.

Thank you for listening to these simple words spoken from my soul. I am ready to share to much with this world. I am grateful for the courage I found and the amazing friends who have encouraged me this past week. I see the light within my mentors and it shines ever so brightly within mySelf.

peace.